Didn't we almost have it all?

Okay, so you know i have no one to blame but my self. I should have known he was a manwhore when he asked me out a week, to the day, after braking up with his girlfriend.

But no, I was naive, and believed he just made a stupid decision. I didn't think that he was stupid enough to do it TWICE.

I know, I have no right to be mad, because I broke-up with him, but the thing is I'm more mad at myself. Because I dated a FREAKIN MANWHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean seriously, that guy has an inability to be single. Really! He is the rebound guy. And now I feel like I was stupid, stupid enough to date a guy who I knew was a total flirt. And as it turns out a TOTAL MANWHORE!

So, for once I'm on the side of those who are once again calling Ryan a manwhore.

Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on ME.

So, last night I was looking at my yearbooks from Singapore and I saw my "boyfriend" from like kindergarten thru the first grade. I knew he moved to London after he left singapore, but I wondered what happened to him after that, so i looked him up on facebook and I FOUND HIM! So i messaged him (and probably sounded like a stalker) But he replied and he REMEMBERED ME!!!!! Anywho its been 9 years since i've seen or heard from him and he now lives somewhere in New York. I just cant believe its actually him!

So yeah, thats like the most interesting thing thats happened to me all week....

I took a quizzy thinggy!!!!

http://www.espinthebottle.com/jump/?go=3205&qid=4

yeah.  It wouldn't let me put the picture thing so, i just put that

So, a couple years ago, I was dead set on becoming a doctor. But then all of a sudden, I didn't want to anymore.
I think it was a combination of being in school for so long, and the fact that I'd be responsible for people's lives, that made me drop it as a choice.

So why am I telling you this?

Well because a while back, a few months ago I'd say, I decided to reconsider the choice i made going into the 7th grade. I thought I'd think about becoming a doctor again. So I did.

And within the time I've been in Colorado, I've been alone (figuratively speaking, what i mean is, I don't have much else to occupy my mind besides my crazy family) and I started thinking seriously about it.

And I've decided, once again, that I want to be a doctor. Last time I wanted to be a doctor, I had wanted to be a pediatrician, but this time that is soooo out. If I'm going to be a doctor, I want to do something serious, no little kids screaming for their mommies because they don't like shots, no. I want to be a surgeon.

Now, some people might attribute this to my sincere love of Grey's Anatomy. But thats not it. I realize that the lives of those in Grey's Anatomy, are totally glamourized and that it doesn't work like that. I'm not a moron.

Okay, so I've never been one of those girls thats had her future all planed out, so this is weird for me...

And I may change my mind. but wutever. I dont even noe why im telling u ppl this!

"Hoist the Colours"

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high.
Heave ho,
thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.

The king and his men
stole the queen from her bed
and bound her in her Bones.
The seas be ours
and by the powers
where we will well roam.

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never say we die.

Some men have died
and some are alive
and others sail on the sea
– with the keys to the cage…
and the Devil to pay
we lay to Fiddler’s Green!

The bell has been raised
from it’s watery grave…
Do you hear it’s sepulchral tone?
We are a call to all,
pay head the squall
and turn your sail toward home!

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the Colors high…
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never say we die. 

Yeah so pretty much, one of the most awesome songs ever.

So I saw pirates again in theaters tonight, which would make it round 3. (twice in theaters, once on my laptop). And its still going strong, its perfection seems to enhance each time I see it!!!! YAY!!!!

Oh, and I started crying 20 mins before Will even got stabbed, which was what I was crying about. GOSH! I'm such a weirdy! Oh well, I've come to accept and love that fact. Lets face it, without Pirates, my life wouldn't be half as interesting... because normal people aren't cool.

Oh, I have just recently discovered the wonderful world of post AWE Will and Elizabeth fanfic, and what an amazing world it is. I serioulsy love those young (well some of them may be old for all I noe) authors out there who have filled my mind with many, many things to help satisfy my need for pirates. I don't know what I would do without them!!!!!!!

YAY FOR FANFIC WRITERS!!!!!!!


Ps... I listened to the song Far Away, by Nickelback, today and it made me cry. I'm serious, if you listen to it, while reading the lyrics its so perfect, and it embodies Will and Elizabeth so wonderfully.

PS....

BEING RIGHT SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


"It depends on the day..."

I have come to a revelation.

And for those of you who saw me at the theater... You know this is a good thing.

I have realized, though it may not be quite as i would have liked, that Will and Elizabeth are finally together (emotionally), and are happy.

Its still sad, but at the same time happy.

Its happily ever after...
with a kink in it.


"It depends on the day..."  -Will Turner

*sigh*

So, here I stand on the brink of a throughly Grey'sless summer. And what a depressing prospect it is. Shonda herself said she, "Tried her best to burn it all down, this season." So she could start fresh next season.
Our interns will be residents, and all  the charachters newly single, well execept George, but  is only a matter of time beofre Callie realizes he slept with Izzie. (for those of you who don't watch Grey's, Callie and Geroge are married).

But the thing I don't think Shonda realizes, is that we don't want to start fresh, or at least I dont.

I mean, seriously, no one likes Meredith single, all she does is "get drunk and sleep with inaprropriate men." And no one wants to see poor Derek try to start dating. 

What will be interesting, is to see Mark, Mark without Addison. Lets see what Mark is like without her around, hey, maybe he'll start dating too...

And whats with the new interns? How can I hate them already, I've only seen them for like 5 seconds! But somehow, I hate them.

Especially Lexi, but that, is obvious.

Lexi Grey, formerly known as McBarwhore,  is Meredith's half-sister. Who attended Harvard Med school, and is now to be an intern at Seattle Grace, and from what I've read, she's got it in for Meredith.

Now, I don't like the sound of a girl whos trying to hurt merdith, if she and Derek have split up.

If lexi starts dating Derek someone will die.

And what about Gorge????

My guess, is he repeats his intern year, cuz he's  wayyyyy to important just to leave. But then he'd be hanging out with Lexi and the new interns, and i don't like them!!!!


Okay, well Enough with my babbling!

Much love!

Have you ever thought you had it all, and then suddenly, all you thought you had was gone, before you even had it?

Tonight on Grey's Anatomy it all fell apart. 

Okay. Now that you have already deduced that I am in tears, and on the verge of mental breakdown, you'll probably want to know why. And even if you don't, I'm telling you anyways, so shut up and listen.

Lets start from the smallest things that make me cry silently, and make our way up to the things that make me bawl, out loud, so the people on the 1st floor of my house can here me... When I'm on the third.


7)  Addison is leaving
6)  Alex is in love with "Rebecca Pope" aka "Eva" aka "Jane Doe", but she's married, and when she asked her to give her a reason to stay, "a reason from him", he told her to stick with her husband. But when he goes back to go after her, she's already gone.
5)  Geroge failed his exam, and is also leaving.
4)  Derek gave this beautiful speech, the perfect speech, that made you remember why he is McDreamy, and Meredith didn't even answer, she changed the subject to Christina's Wedding.
3)  Christina was all ready to marry Burke, she was about to walk down that isle, when he decides they shouldn't get married. Because he doesn't love her, at least not in the right way.
Burke left. To where? I don't know. Is he comming back? I don't know. Is he comming back to Christina? I don't know. I just don't know.
2)  Meredith needed Christina to walk down that isle, and get married. To show her, that people like them could do this, people like them, could be happy, and get the happy ending. And Christina didn't get down that isle, Christina didn't get married, and Christina most certainly did not, get a happy ending. And Meredith's been given a decision, Derek can't walk away, he won't walk away, she's the love of his life, but does she want this? Does she love him? Does she need him? Or does she want to walk away, and put Derek out of his misery?...
1)  Derek thinks that he and Meredith might not either. And in a way, neither do I...

And the worst part is I  don't know. I don't know anything. And I am going to spend the entire summer, not knowing.

I think we can all know agree when I say that the "Season 3 Finale" was aptly titled.....

Didn't we almost have it all?

 

So basically, life as a MerDer... sucks.


Its like Shonda hates us or something, and wants to cause us pain.

If McDreamy and McBarwhore do the McNasty.... I will KILL someone!!!!

I've also heard that she got asked to be in a 3 episode arc for next season. AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*cries* I hate this!

HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha ha, i finally found time to do this!!!!!! lol, anyways yeah, I'll try to update this as often as possible!

Oh oh!!!! Clicky the Linky!!!!!!!!!

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